Letter to Mother Messing with My Head after Mother-Daughter Sexual Abuse

As I have shared before, I cut my mother/abuser out of my life back in 2003 when I entered into therapy to heal from the mother-daughter sexual abuse. I told her that there would be no more personal contact (visits or phone calls). She was emailing me to death, which messed with my head, so [...]

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Issues with Sleeping after Child Abuse

Yesterday, I talked about dialing it back and shifting my focus from the dissociative identity disorder (DID) issues to the post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) issues. (Isn’t my life fun??) I have recently been recognizing just how f@#$ed up my sleep patterns are. My DID mostly shielded me from just how bad it was. I had [...]

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Dialing it Back after Child Abuse

A friend of mine told me that a recent issue of Oprah’s magazine included an article about binge eating. According to the article, a person has binge eating disorder if he binge eats twice a week for six months. I died laughing when my friend told me this. I did not laugh because I disagree. [...]

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Child Abuse: I Was Only Eight Years Old!

I was recently triggered and got to thinking about the event that caused the triggering. This story is not triggering to read. I was eight years old when my teacher assigned the class a book report. Most of the kids chose short books. I had always wanted to see a particular movie, which my mother [...]

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Great Advice about the Healing Process after Child Abuse

Last week, I wrote about my struggles with accepting that the aftereffects of the child abuse will always be a part of my life: Facing the Reality of the Rest of My Life after Child Abuse Facing Reality and Having Compassion Toward Myself after Child Abuse Acknowledging and Overcoming Obstacles after Child Abuse I also [...]

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You Don’t Have to Heal from Child Abuse Alone

A recurring message that I received as an abused child was one of isolation. I was alone with my abusers. There was nobody to help me. The Evanescence song Whisper from the album Fallen captures this feeling of isolation so well: Catch me as I fall Say you’re here and it’s all over now Speaking [...]

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Acknowledging and Overcoming Obstacles after Child Abuse

In my last couple of blog entries, I have been talking about my struggle in coming to terms with the fact that I will always have obstacles from the child abuse in my life. This is not an easy admission for me to make, much less face. As frustrating as this admission is, it is [...]

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Facing Reality and Having Compassion Toward Myself after Child Abuse

In my last blog entry, I shared that I am in the process of accepting that I will always have aftermath from the child abuse to deal with. I am trying to adjust to this reality and be okay with it. I said that when I reframe my situation and view having aftereffects from the [...]

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Facing the Reality of the Rest of My Life after Child Abuse

When I decided to heal from my history of child abuse, I was determined for the outcome to be complete, 100% healing. At my first therapy session, my therapist asked me what my goals were, and I said that I wanted to be a “normal” person like everyone else. He replied that everyone else was [...]

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How to Process the Images, Feelings, etc. after Flashbacks

On my blog entry entitled My Most Traumatizing Child Abuse Memory, a reader posted the following comment: I hope you don’t mind but I have a question though. Reading this post I wonder how you manage to deal with the images, smells, feelings etc afterwards. I mean I am really struggling to manage after a [...]

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