Accepting a Diagnose of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)

See my last post, Do People with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) Know That They Have It? for the first part of the story. For the next two weeks, I was constantly p@$$ed off. I was so angry (hence the name “Irate”), but none of it made any sense. I opened a dialogue with that part, [...]

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Do People with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) Know That They Have It?

On my blog entry entitled Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) and “Hearing Voices”, a reader posted the following comment: I know I have these inner voices yet I don’t know if they are attached to actual parts per say-with names and history. I was wondering, (without being intrusive) if your personal work began with just the [...]

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Dismantling Programming after Ritual Abuse

Yesterday, I talked about my personal experiences with programming after ritual abuse. Today, I would like to focus on dismantling the programming. The best resource I have found to help understand ritual abuse programming and how to dismantle it is Chrystine Oksana’s book, Safe Passage to Healing. If you suspect that you are battling programming, [...]

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Ritual Abuse and Programming (Brain-washing)

On my blog entry entitled Traveling the Child Abuse Healing Journey Together, a reader posted the following comment: I’ve wondered if you experience repeated messages in your spirit – mine have told me to die over and over. Some time ago I read about being brain-washed by ritual abusers primarily to prevent telling. I recognize [...]

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Traveling the Child Abuse Healing Journey Together

As I shared in my last blog entry, I have not been doing very well lately. I listed a bunch of day-to-day stuff that is going wrong in my life in that blog entry, so there is no need to repeat it here. I had a very rough time later that night. If I could [...]

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Really Struggling with Depression – Not Sure Why

I have really been struggling lately, and I am not sure why. I suspect that some of it ties into the summer solstice that just passed on Sunday. I am certain that part of it is also fueled by the end of the school year. Still, I am having a very difficult time shaking this [...]

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Obsession with Teeth

After reading the comments on my blog entry entitled Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD): Hoarding, I realized just how common it is for child abuse survivors to hoard pens. In light of this, I would like to hear from my readers if there is also a common obsession with teeth. I have been obsessed with my [...]

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Summer Solstice is Here

I finally figured out why I have been feeling so INSANE this week. Tomorrow is the summer solstice! That snuck up on me. If you were ritually abused and feel like you were losing your mind this week, you are not alone. This “insanity” should pass after tomorrow. Whew!

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Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD): Repetitive Actions or Rituals

On Wednesday, I kicked off a series on obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD). I have struggled with OCD symptoms for most of my life. Each day, I am focusing on another symptom of OCD. Yesterday, I talked about repetitive thoughts. Today, I will focus upon repetitive actions, which are also known as rituals. Repetitive actions are [...]

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Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD): Repetitive Thoughts

Yesterday, I kicked off a series on obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD). I have struggled with OCD symptoms for most of my life. Each day, I am focusing on another symptom of OCD. The OCD symptom that I found most troubling was repetitive thoughts. I am happy to report that I was able to (eventually) end [...]

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