I was so incredibly tired over the weekend. I would have given anything for a nap on Saturday afternoon, but I spent the day watching other people’s children for two friends who are in crisis. I took a 1/2 tsp. of Tussionex at 9:30 p.m. on Saturday night and then slept straight through for 12 hours. That is just about unheard of for me barring some sort of serious illness.
Hub tried to wake me at ~ 7:00 a.m. because the dogs were being loud. I could not wake up, nor did I want to as soon as I knew that it was the dogs, not the child, who needed tending. My son then came into my room at ~ 8:00 a.m., and I could not wake up then, either. I finally woke up at 9:30 a.m. – after a full 12 hours of sleep – and still felt groggy throughout the day.
I don’t think there is anything physically wrong with me. I think I just finally “burned out” emotionally. I have been running with my metaphorical engine on full throttle for so long that I simply cannot do it any longer.
So, instead of working hard trying to play catch up, I finished reading my book and pretty much laid around. That’s not easy to pull off when you live with a child with attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), but I made it clear that hub and child were to L-E-A-V-E for at least an hour so I could actually sit down and watch TV (not football for hub or Sponge Bob for child).
I am rested up yet? That remains to be seen.
Photo credit: Lynda Bernhardt
Great for you Faith…you took some time for you!
Fat Girl Oreo
Hi Faith,
This is a long one. It will break soon, just hold on. I hope you got the rest that you needed.
Only the best wishes for you Faith,
palucci
Faith
hope soon you will feel more rested
take care
anon
this too will pass…rest well.
barbi
i have an excellent suggestion.
have a whole month starting today when you do not write in your blog or in your journal or anywhere else about DID and child abuse and any topics related to either.
plus ….
for that same month – starting today – do not read anything anywhere at all about DID or child abuse or related topics – this means ignoring email alerts to blog comments etc.
at t h eend of the month email me or blog everyone about what the experience was like for you. the chance to live a month without reinforcements of what you already know happened to you. the chance ot see if your thoughts can turn away from the trauma to more pleasant things.
no-one will die without you on line for a month.
i bet you will FEEL MUCH BETTER.
I DARE YOU : ) in the nicest possible way.
love from gracie et al.
Hi Faith,
Being tired with no escape is no fun! Good for you for communicating your needs. That is not the easiest thing for a lot of people. I always feel so good when I’ve communicated my needs well and been successful at getting them met!
I make my “boys” leave when i am totally exhausted too..or just uncontrollably grumpy. I usually feel somewhat refreshed when they get home, but not always.
This level of exhaustion you have could take a bit more time than just one afternoon… It could be that you’re body may be trying to tell you that during this time of year, you need more time for you consistently till the season is over….? Maybe you could schedule in a few hours for yourself a couple of times a week…? (during the time of day that you flag… mine is around 2pm) Your son could go play at a friend’s house or go out with the hub or something… It’s a thought.
Here’s to rest and then wakefulness.
Peace,
mia
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