Feeling “Stuck” in an Area of Healing

On my blog entry entitled Shouldn’t G*d be Expected to Protect Children?, a reader posted the following comment: ***** religious triggers ***** Faith, I thought this was a really good post. I feel like I am so stuck in this area of my healing. I feel like I have grown and healed so much over [...]

Read Full Post »

How Do You Deal with Body Memories?

Now that I have shared my story about seeing my mother/abuser again, I am ready to dive back into helping all of you! On my blog entry entitled What is a Body Memory?, a reader posted the following comment: I have a question- I know about body memories. But I don’t get how to process [...]

Read Full Post »

Aftermath of Seeing Mother/Abuser Again

After my mother/abuser left, my friend and I went to my sister’s graduation party where we had a great time. I got drunk and figured that was completely warranted in light of the situation. I didn’t get a chance to decompress afterward because of the drama that ensued in trying to get home. I returned [...]

Read Full Post »

Talking with Mother/Abuser for First Time in Six Years

After the graduation ceremony, I was so caught up in my joy over my sister that I wanted to race to the portico to celebrate with her. My friend is the one who pulled me back to reality. She said that there are a ton of people pushing their way through this auditorium. Let’s let [...]

Read Full Post »

Wishing You Happy Holidays

I hope all of you have a good holiday season (or simply get through it … whichever applies). I found out today that my cancer scare was a benign tumor. I am so dissociated and exhausted that I had pretty much no reaction to the news. Hub cried in relief. One of my best friends [...]

Read Full Post »

Graduation Ceremony & Seeing Mother/Abuser

Despite my mother/abuser’s plans to arrive an hour early to the graduation ceremony, my friend and I beat her there, which isn’t surprising … my mother is always late except for airports and dentists. We arrived about 45 minutes before the ceremony, and we chose seats where we would have a good view of my [...]

Read Full Post »

Morning of the Graduation

My friend and I had a leisurely breakfast on Saturday morning, and we talked about all sorts of things. I shared some of my childhood experiences with her. She already knew the big picture – mother abused me, and my childhood was really bad – but she did not know the extent of the abuse [...]

Read Full Post »

I Survived the Trip!

I am happy to report that I survived my weekend trip to see my sister graduate from college, which involved seeing my mother/abuser for the first time in six years. I guess I cannot fully say that I survived the trip quite yet because I am still on it as I write this. Our flight [...]

Read Full Post »

I’m Home

I don’t have time to post much, and I am very triggered. Thanks to weather conditions, it took us two days to get home from my sister’s graduation. Saw my mother briefly — details to follow at a later date. I have been slammed with a couple of big issues upon my return, so I [...]

Read Full Post »

Nervous Wreck

I have had to take Xanax the past couple of days to help ease my anxiety, and I am taking Tussionex to sleep at night. Hey, at least I am sleeping! We leave tomorrow for my sister’s graduation. Please send lots of positive energy, thoughts, and/or prayers my way as I prepare to see my [...]

Read Full Post »