Triggered by video of alleged child abuse

My partner at Adoption Under One Roof wrote a blog entry about an adoptive mother who has been charged with misdemeanor child abuse of her seven-year-old child. I was triggered by watching the video of this mother making her child swirl hot sauce in his mouth for lying and then take a cold shower. This [...]

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Can Being Childish be an Aftereffect of Child Abuse?

On my blog entry entitled Why I Relate So Strongly to Nina in “Black Swan”, a reader posted the following question: Is being a childish adult also an effect of abuse? ~ Tentmaker The short answer is yes – childishness can be an aftereffect of child abuse, and you don’t have to be childish in [...]

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How Long Does it Take to Stop Feeling “Crazy”?

On my blog entry entitled Why I Relate So Strongly to Nina in “Black Swan”, a reader posted the following comment: I know it is different for everyone and the process is not linear, but when attaching feelings to events, you mentioned releasing your emotions, how long did it take for you to feel not [...]

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Value of Online College for Child Abuse Survivors

Today I am climbing up on my soapbox, so consider yourself warned! I don’t know how much any of you have followed what is going on with online colleges in the news, but as fellow child abuse survivors, you need to know… I have been working as an online college instructor for one of the [...]

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Why I Relate So Strongly to Nina in “Black Swan”

When I went to see the movie Black Swan, I thought it was going to be a thriller set on a ballet stage. I never expected to relate so deeply to the main character, Nina (played by Natalie Portman), especially since I have absolutely no experience (or even interest) in ballet. I also did not [...]

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Feeling Panicked after Being Sick for a Month

I am physically worn out. The week of Christmas, I was an emotional wreck, which I suspect lowered my immune system. The day after Christmas, I woke up with a bad head cold. I am usually able to fight off colds with plenty of fluids, plenty of rest, and plenty of Airborne and Zicam. Because [...]

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Bear with Me

Hi, everyone. Please bear with me over the next few days. When I flew with a sinus infection twice last weekend, I triggered a bout of vertigo. The spinning stopped midday yesterday, leaving behind a severe headache. I am still feeling out of sorts this morning. Fortunately, I had written a blog entry for this [...]

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Another Dream about My Teeth…with a Twist

I used to have a recurring dream about my teeth falling out. I had it for years … pretty much throughout my adulthood until I started recovering flashbacks. There were different variations of the dream, but the underlying theme was the same. I wanted my teeth to be permanent, but they would start falling out. [...]

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Diary Snapshot: Sharing my Vulnerability – Part 4 of 4

Continued from here. My house is in shambles because my kid has been home so long from the inclement weather, and I don’t have time to clean it all up (he does a thorough job) because my son and I flying to Florida to celebrate his birthday with my sister and nephews. I am trying [...]

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Diary Snapshot: Sharing my Vulnerability – Part 3 of 4

Continued from here. Then, I fear that I am turning into one of “those” bloggers who just wants ratings, which has never been my goal. I just want to offer hope and healing to fellow child abuse survivors, but a “persecutor” part of myself tells me that I am just some egoist and that I [...]

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