Fighting My Way Back from Unexpected Trigger

This blog entry continues from yesterday. One reason I have so much trouble feeling safe and protected is because I have had abuse lie dormant and then resurface. My mother went 10 years without abusing me and then attacked me again after my father died, so a part of myself is always on alert for [...]

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Blooming Lotus is Being Featured on TeachStreet

Blooming Lotus is currently a “Featured Blogger” on TeachStreet. I am glad this happened after I got back to blogging daily! :0) Photo credit: Faith Allen

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Unexpectedly Triggered by a Theme Park

Traveling to new places has been a wonderful way for me to let go of control and enjoy the moment. I loved visiting Los Angeles last year. I felt so free and safe … so far away from home and not responsible for doing anything but having fun at Disneyland. This year did not go [...]

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Control to Meet Need to Feel Protected and Safe

This week, I have been exploring my strong need to be in control of the situations in my life and how to dismantle this need for control. I received lots of great advice yesterday – please keep it coming! I don’t want to have to feel responsible for so much in my life, and I [...]

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How Does a Control Freak Let Go of Control?

As I shared yesterday, I am in a difficult place of healing. I am feeling a strong pull to let go of the need to be in control all of the time and to stop making myself feel responsible for everything that goes on around me. For someone whose life has always felt out of [...]

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Easing Back In

My son and I just returned from our trip across the country. We were gone for over a week, and I did not access the blog at all while we were gone. So, please bear with me as I approve comments in the moderator queue, etc. In a nutshell, here is what is going on [...]

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Update on Me

Hi, all. Thank you for your patience during my hiatus. On Saturday, I will be traveling across the country for a trip that will last over a week. I plan to return to blogging at the beginning of August. I am in a period of transition and transformation right now. I am feeling a strong [...]

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Enjoy your holiday weekend!

Hi, all. Just a quick message to say that I hope everyone has a relaxing and enjoyable holiday weekend (well, those of you in the States for Independence Day). I hope the rest of you have an enjoyable weekend whether it is a holiday or not. :0) I am hanging in there. I am still [...]

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