Archive for January 31st, 2008

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I am really struggling lately with keeping balance in my life, as you might have noticed by my sporadic posting over the past couple of weeks. I don’t know how it happens. To a certain extent, it has to do with still struggling with setting appropriate boundaries. It also has to do with a deep need not to let other people down. Regardless of why, the pace of my life is wearing me down, and I need to take some steps to change it.

The last time my life got this crazy, I quit a bunch of things. I told myself that I could only keep three big commitments, and the rest had to go. That was huge for me. I have something inside of myself that does not ever want me to quit an activity because I don’t want to let anyone down. However, if I do not find balance, then I wind up letting myself down. I am a human BEing, not a human DOing, and I have not spent nearly enough time lately just “being.”

Some of what is going on is just life. Life can get crazy sometimes, and mine sure has. However, I still have not quite learned how to leave some activities behind when they are no longer benefiting me. Every commitment I make feels like a life commitment, but I cannot add new things that are a better fit today if I do not let go of the commitments from yesterday.

I think I will start right now. I will post this and then just go “be.” :0)

Photo credit: Lynda Bernhardt

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