Archive for October 13th, 2009

Yesterday, I started to come out of the funk. I still did not have a lot of energy, but all I needed to do was grade papers, which does not require a lot of energy.

As I was grading papers, I noticed how stiff my shoulders were. I guess they have been stiff for a long time, but I have not really been very aware of being in my own body lately. I felt a strong urge to do yoga (which I have not done in a long time), so I dropped what I was doing and did yoga in my room, followed by meditation. I cannot say that anything earth-shattering happened, but it felt nice to stretch out my muscles.

I also went walking with a friend yesterday, which was both good for my body and my spirit. I always feel energized after spending time talking with a (positive) friend. I exercised again this morning, so I guess I am on a roll this week.

I have also been reading a book at night before I go to sleep rather than trying to get more done on the computer. I find that burning a lavender/vanilla-scented candle and listening to relaxing (New Age) music while reading in bed really helps me sleep better.

So, I am doing more things to nurture myself. It doesn’t come naturally or easily to me, but I am doing it. I keep finding that depression is always nearby, but I am choosing to let those emotions pass through me as I need to express them without getting too attached to them. At least I don’t feel depressed when I am reading, exercising, or otherwise nurturing myself. I even played the piano briefly the other day – something I have not done in a long time.

Here’s hoping I can keep this up until January.

Photo Credit: Lynda Bernhardt

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