Sorry, everyone. I was hoping that I was up to blogging regularly again, but my life feels like it is spinning so out of control right now that I cannot catch my breath. As I have shared before, I have a difficult time separating out my child’s experiences from my own inner child. Despite my many efforts to help my child be successful in school, his latest report card shows no improvement and even some lost ground. I have been working my @$$ off doing homework with him, finding him a tutor and then taking him there, advocating for all sorts of accommodations for him at school, etc. I might as well have done nothing for the results that I am seeing. I don’t know what else to do.
I am in the process of screening a private school that is expensive but is specially designed for children with my son’s particular issues (ADHD with learning disabilities). Meanwhile, hub (who is allergic to spending money) is looking to point the blame at me – that I am not strict enough, etc. When a child has a learning disability, you can bribe or beat him, and neither will make a difference because they simply do not learn like other children do.
Several other less important things have blown up this week, too, and I just want to crawl under a rock and avoid it all. I am so worn out. I am canceling things right and left because I just need some time to catch my breath. Now my kid is having diarrhea, and his best friend just got over a stomach virus, so I don’t know if I have that ahead of me as well.
Please hang in there. I will blog as I can. Right now, I just want to lock myself in a room and cry for a year.
Photo credit: Lynda Bernhardt
Blooming Lotus 
It makes sense you’d be exhausted. May it get easier and may you get all the support you need.
SDW
Hey Faith,
Sorry honey. The picture of that poor chicken says it all.
There is a really bad stomach going around. My son had it, and it is not pretty. But maybe it’s just nerves about his report card.
Something to consider for your son. EEG therapy. I believe the method was first designed by a man who wanted to help his son who had epilepsy. And it worked! It is costly, and not usually covered by insurance, but may be well worth the cost if it is something he responds to. I did it and it did help me, only I could not afford to go as long as I needed to. I always wondered what might have been if I did. Anyway, hang in there, it will all smooth out.
Peace and rest and all good stuff,
mia
Hi Faith…take all the time you need your faithful readers will be here when you get back.
I too had to deal with a child that had learning disabilities and honestly the only thing that made a difference was a private school that I swear was designed specifically for her (smile). It cost money I didn’t have but a combination of scholarships the school had and a private sponsor I was able to swing it. I was willing to give up everything to get her the educational resources she needed. There are loan programs that are long-term almost like taking out a mortgage and here in my city if the board of education does not adequately meet the special education needs of your child they are required to cover tuition of a private school. You may want to locate an experienced advocate or attorney that specializes in special education rights.
Hope my two cents offered you some hope and some ideas to help you meet your child’s needs…
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((((((((((((((((Faith)))))))))))))))safe hugs
Sorry you are having such a bad time we do hope you will take care of you and do what you need to to at least come up for air
thinking of you and sending good strong thoughts to you
please be easy with you at times we all need to just stop and with children it is difficult but at this moment in time it appears you have no energy or options sending best wishes to you and a large warm comforter
anon
Sometimes solutions come at the oddest times – I hope this is the case for you and your son. We will be here when you come back…
Faith,
Breaks help sometimes. I think it’s part of self care. I don’t realize when I need a break because I want to do everything all the time. Take care of yourself, I hope it all works out 🙂
-Hope
Please take all the time you need to take care of yourself, Faith!
This may sound like Polyanna talking, but when I read what you wrote I thought, “What would have happened if you had not been advocating for your son and helping him learning?” It’s hard to prove a negative, but without your dedication to his learning and to him, life would be exceedingly more difficult and even traumatic. You are a tremendous mom and I am applauding you.
sending support and hope for rest
ruby
Faith xoxo
Sending you all my good wishes and gentle thoughts.
Hi (((Faith))) sending you lots of hugs. Like my daughter, your son is always going to have good and challenging moments in their life. This will pass Faith. You do a lot to help your son, and I have to tell myself this too, but the results are not up to you. Your son will be fine… Faith.
palucci
Hey Palucci,
Just saying hi!
Peace,
mia
Remember, Faith, that your blog is mainly for you.
So, take all the time you need… You owe us no apologies.
Paul