Archive for July 2nd, 2012

Sorry that I dropped off the face of the earth last week. I traveled across the country from Wednesday through Sunday and foolishly thought I might have some time to blog. Quiet “alone time” in front of my computer is difficult to pull off when traveling with three children!

I have been mulling over a concept for a while that I have been wanting to blog about. I love the television series Covert Affairs and received the DVDs for Season Two as a Mother’s Day present. One of the last episodes in Season Two discussed a concept that I have been thinking about ever since the episode first aired, and I have had a renewed interest in the concept since watching it again.

A character named Eyal Lavine (played by Oded Fehr) is a Mossad agent who has an interesting conversation with the lead character, Annie Walker (play by Piper Perabo). Annie says that she wants to “have it all,” an interesting career as a Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) agent as well as a family. Eyal tells Annie that her view is “very American” and that Israelis view life differently. (I have no idea if this is true or not, but I like the concept regardless.)

Eyal says that life has a flow and that you need to release yourself into the current. Rather than making all of these plans and trying to mold your life into the way you want it to be, you need to release yourself into the current of life and go wherever it takes you. When Annie asks where he thinks the current will take him, Eyal replies, “Today, the current has taken me here.” Later, after a climactic moment, Annie asks where Eyal will go next, to which he replies, “Wherever the current takes me.”

I really like this philosophy of life, and it is so different from the way I have lived most of my life. I have always had a very “American” view that I can “achieve the American” dream but putting enough effort into what I want to accomplish. However, I have found myself many times putting all I have into one direction, but life had other plans for me. As an example, despite giving my all to becoming pregnant, that never happened – life had other plans for me to adopt my son, which never would have happened if I had achieved my goal of pregnancy. If I had never adopted, I never would have applied for a job as a blogger, and I certainly never would have started blogging about healing from child abuse. If I had “willed my way” in where I wanted to go, the most meaningful part of my life never would have happened.

Giving in to life’s current rather than trying to “will” my way into what I want is a huge change of perspective for me but one that I am making an effort to try.

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