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On my blog entry entitled How Many Actresses have DID?, a reader posted the following comment:

There are many singers that I wonder if they are multiple from the words to their songs. ~ Diamond

That got me thinking … What songs really resonate with you due to lyrics that relate to dissociative identity disorder (DID), child abuse, etc.?

Again, as I stated in my other post, this is all speculation. None of us knows these singers or songwriters, so we have no way of knowing another person’s diagnosis. That being said, I think it is interesting to explore what songs have helped you to feel less alone as you heal from DID, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), and other diagnoses after child abuse.

For me, Evanescence’s Fallen CD really resonates deeply – just about every song on the CD. Going Under explains how I feel when I get sucked into that dismal darkness of depression. Bring Me to Life was the first song that drew me in with these lyrics:

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb ~ Evanescence

I lived most of my life feeling numb, and I have always been drawn to songs that talk about the eyes being the window to the soul. I so desperately wanted someone to “see” me.

Tourniquet captures my feelings toward suicide. Hello sounds like an alter part singing:

Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she’s not breathing?
Hello I’m your mind giving you someone to talk to

If I smile and don’t believe
Soon I know I’ll wake from this dream
Don’t try to fix me, I’m not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don’t cry

Suddenly I know I’m not sleeping
Hello I’m still here
All that’s left of yesterday ~ Evanescence

The song Whisper gives me chills and sounds like something written by a ritual abuse survivor:

catch me as i fall
say you’re here and it’s all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
no one’s here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain if i will it all away

don’t turn away
don’t give in to the pain
don’t try to hide
though they’re screaming your name
don’t close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don’t turn out the light
never sleep never die

i’m frightened by what i see
but somehow i know that there’s much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away ~ Evanescence

Of course, I bring my own personal experiences into my interpretation of these songs. Do you see the same things that I do? What songs resonate with you?

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